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2007-11-10T22:01:00.001+08:00

I'VE MOVED.

bye stalkers/faithful readers :D

to orientalbeauty, byebye (:

2007-11-02T22:13:00.000+08:00

history killed me. really. i think my arm's gonna break soon ): on the bright side, 6 more papers! (:

what's significant when alone, & what's insignificant when in crowds?

i can't wait for As to be over. lip piercing wait for meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :D:D:D

2007-10-01T17:53:00.000+08:00

Dear OrientalBeauty, i'll be on hiatus for awhile since A levels is in 4 weeks (exactly!) time. for now, i shall be somewhat similar to a jailbird, being locked up in the vicinity of my own home and of course the college (fuck TTH). so goodbye for now faithful readers of OrientalBeauty, may we meet after my A levels (that is if i don't commit suicide after my papers). to AhLoh, i love you and if i should die during my papers i wanna say i'm glad i walked this rough and tormenting road with you & thank you for picking me up when i was weak and depress (no, even qiuqiu can't compare to you ). to nicky who's in the middle of her promotional exams now, i've always been proud of you for who you are, you've been the reason for making mornings to school enjoyable and i've always looked forward to. should i repeat my A levels next year, we'll still be walking to college together! (: and to AhPeh, thank you for being the most irritating flea that was there for me when i cried over things that seem so trivial now & always saying encouraging stuff that make me feel energised (even 23048921908490redbulls can't compare to you!) and to others whom i've not mentioned (not that you're no important, they're just much more important), thank you for supporting me in visible/invisible ways that i can/will never see. i love you guys from the bottom of my heart (:

2007-09-06T00:23:00.000+08:00

OFFICIALLY MINE! (:

beijing can kiss my ass.

2007-09-05T20:51:00.000+08:00

Hahaa, Ice-break (Continued...)
Yes this is a better representation!!!

2007-09-03T22:00:00.000+08:00

for i am still a coarse stone that has yet to be polished, i feel kinda envious for my fellow students who are doing their best in their studies. i hope that i'm not too late and that my idleness would gradually fade away with my hardwork. but still, i'm proud of Sheila, Nic and Ninny who're doing their best to excel and i WILL catch up with them at the speed of light (3.0*10^9 hehe)! okok, 7 more days till prelims, AZA AZA FIGHTING!

2007-08-26T18:57:00.001+08:00

dear friends (if i've any left that is) please do understand my negligence of being there for you, i'm fighting a battle now that i can only go alone. no, i don't mean none of you are important, in fact, i think of you guys everyday, what you guys are doing and how you guys are (sounds crazy i know). i hope you'll see that only i myself can walk this path. it's gonna be a helluva journey but i hope to see you guys at the finishing line. for all the times i've been insensitive, i apologise. for the times i wasn't there, i wish i was. for the times when i couldn't understand, i wanted to. for the times i wasn't a friend, i'm sorry. tuesday, will be a heartwrenching day. i hope tuesday never comes.

okay, enough with this, i'm as emo as an elmo now. thursday's gp prelims! aza aza fighting to you and everyone with prelims!

2007-08-12T13:33:00.000+08:00

my mum and i were talking about going back to taiwan after my A's....

me : why don't you go thailand with me?
mum : there's tsunami, mudslide and whatsnots. i don't want
me : yea, and you'll rather let me go alone and die alone, won't you be unable to live without me and rather die with me?
mum : when you're there, i'll be at home praying to God that it won't happen
bro : if you die, my band will be playing for you funeral

it's really literally a love-hate relationship with my family i tell you.

2007-08-05T21:59:00.000+08:00

elitism, discrimination, favouritism, prejudice, i never knew it existed until you told me it did. i guess what you said was probably a nicer way of saying that you didn't think it was worth it anymore. but what makes you think that i didn't try. from what i've gathered, as long as i've this kind of background, discrimination's probably my next best friend (which is, true to a certain extent).

i've never been a fan of R&B, cause it mostly reminds me of the ugly side of things, but there always seems to be a song that i can never skip when it comes up in my ipod, a song of nostalgia and well, the very part of my life that i could never turn back to.

school tomorrow, so not looking forward to.

2007-08-03T19:40:00.000+08:00

i've no family. the people i'm living with are humans that will always regard me as a martian. my only family's my dog, who's gonna be taken away soon anyway. go ahead and mock me, "brother", you've had everything you want so far, i'm nothing more than an amusing toy that's digging it's own grave to you. i'm so amusing thaty even your friends and that fat girlfriend of yours mock me, at our house even. so go ahead and fucking laugh your head off. don't YOU think i'm amusing too? just like a chimpanzee trapped in a zoo, with people pointing their hands out at, i'm like a show to everyone. i'm like the ant that's to be trampled on. fuck family, fuck A levels, fuck everything that i've once loved and treasured.

2007-07-26T23:20:00.000+08:00

hullo Oriental Beauty, it's been quite some time but i'm back with a bang. so my 18th birthday has passed, and though i had wished for my friends to spend it with me, i'm glad that at least all made it on sat at girrafe and for all the presents and love received i'll treasure it :D it seems so surreal that i'm officially 18, since i'm probably only 5 within. but yep, 18 years of age, more responsibilities and all that growing up jazz about being an adult, well screw that i might be growing up but i'm still and forever will be a kid within. 2007's been a merciless year for me, and time to time i'm fighting a war that's all too familier but yet it's in full force. i hope i'm able to find my (still hidden) motivation to get me through this year peacefully. may God grant me the wisdom and perserverence to face this stronghold. hokay, i need to get myself in check and to probably be nicer to people, i'm sorry for the awkwardness and my anger management issues. i'm ashamed of myself and i hope nothing's too late to be saved.

2007-07-15T21:22:00.000+08:00

if i was granted an opportunity to have a wish granted, i wish that i could harden up my heart and stop getting upset over things/people that don't even feel the same way as i do. then maybe i'll learn better than to give 2 fucks about people who are not worth it. so bye, i'm off to make some voodoo dolls and probably stab them with knifes/pins/poison. today's the month of angsty.

2007-07-05T20:23:00.000+08:00

hullo! i'm back from nationals and boy must i say the feeling was great! though i know i've won no medals or whatever shit (like duh) but it was really a once in a lifetime experience and i'm gonna remember this day till i'm old and grey with teeths falling outta my mouth :D i thank those who've wished me luck and the two special people who came to watch me lose (hehe). all in all, i'm happy to be home and back in the arms of....

cutest thing ever please (: hokay, now back to the books. physics MCQ tomorrow, hehe.

2007-06-25T17:47:00.000+08:00

(very chingchong-ish) nabei (/very chingchong-ish) if you've run out of words to say, just say that you concede defeat, don't try and save your thick skin/oily/pimplish face by saying you don't wanna waste your time. what an irony when you were the one who started this and then coming to say you've wasted your time? i bet we wasted more of ours and though i know i shouldn't say this but i'm feeling very sore i don't know why. and i've no idea why i'm typing this cause i'm actually facing a crisis called MYE! be sure to watch tomorrow's news, cause i might just be appearing on the headline news under the category of "JC girl jumped to her death after paper"

2007-06-22T21:09:00.001+08:00

people with no backbone to stand up for themselves and making others do the dirty work (hurling vulgarities, writing hate comments) are disgusting.

2007-06-19T23:28:00.001+08:00

i came back home today, feeling very happy for myself cause of something very smart that i thought of (believe me when i say it's smart!). but alas, it all had to come down in a disappointment cause of SOMEBODY who RIPPED OFF my WONDERFUL/SMART/INGENIUS idea ( i wonder who hor sheila loh). yes, she stole my very beautiful 'lame martian machine' nick ))):

i'm gonna post this up on friendster for everyone to see :D. june holidays are soon to be over, and in comes the terrible MYE. i hope i'll be able to finish studying all that i need to study and (crosses fingers) pass all my subjects, which is gonna be a hard challenge but i'm gonna try.

july's gonna be a month of happiness cause of yours truly's BIRTHDAY :D. so if you haven't gotten any idea as to what to get for me, i advice you to start saving now!

see ya homies :B

2007-06-10T01:17:00.000+08:00

hullo i'm martian, and robots are my bestfriends (make sense, no?)

2007-06-02T13:31:00.000+08:00

the holiday's a dread. i've been cooped up at either home/school for the past few days, so much for having a life during the holidays, and my burning skin's giving me hell lot of problems. but okay i should stop complaining but instead go and study (like i planned!). okay, and since my brother's bringing the whole house down with his band banging and jamming away, it's a perfect chance to get out of my crib.

i realised everybody in my neighbourhood has something to say about me not leashing my dog (including the mama shop auntie). yes even though i know dogs don't have their animal rights cause they can't think but act on their instincts (too much GP, sorry) but it's my damn fucking right that i unleash my dog. imagine having a leash on your neck and getting pulled by someone a thousand pounds heavier than you, though i'm certain those out there who love bondage wouldn't mind. so yes, my point is, give your poor dogs a break and free them from their leashes, and if you're afraid they'll run away, then train them you lazy human beings.

p/s my dog chases birds but not cats. weird, much?
pp/s I. NEED. TO. STUDY. GODDAMMIT :@

2007-05-22T20:38:00.000+08:00

GOOGLE IS SO IRRITATING (so is blogger)! my dog's lying down on the floor now, she's so cute with her stubby little legs & cute little face, how she'll follow me where ever i go and how she'll turn around on her back wanting me to pat her. but at times she's so irritating i wanna kill her. like how she'll pee/shit everywhere and anywhere (my toilet's filled with her pee smell), but then when i shout at her she'll cower in fear and run to her comfort zone - her cage. like, how cute is that?! (snuggles up beside her and kisses her cute little head). sometimes she reminds me of bobby and how i miss him ): when i'm old and grey, imma get myself 5 dogs and 5 cats and lead a sad and lonely lifezz.

p/s i've no school tomorrow, what joy!
pp/s but there's GP MYE on friday, omgomg how now brown cow? fail already lurrh ):

2007-05-19T22:08:00.000+08:00

to the faithful readers (if any) of Oriental Beauty. No, she's has not closed down, just being neglected. so the blogger of OB has been pretty busy, it's been a rollarcoaster ride these few days and i'm glad it's the weekends and june holiday's one week away (LIKE FINALLY!) and my plans for the upcoming holiday's study, study and study. yes, please do not laugh at me, i'm very serious about my work here, and i'm gonna promise myself not to procrastinate anymore, cause procrastinators today are leaders of tomorrow.

so today was mugging day with the favourites (nat, nic, ninny and sheila) at airport. and it came to me that now that we're all out of SJC, our perspectives of things have changed and we've grown stronger, much wiser, and hopefully more mature (unlike some very old people). and yes, i'm so gone with all the teenage dramas. i should really tryyyyyyyyyy my utmost best to do well for As and get into the course i want to :D

p/s my posts are so boring nowadays :/

2007-05-07T22:43:00.000+08:00

2007-04-29T22:02:00.000+08:00

What doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger. There's failures and successes, some small and some big. But they're always there. So don't be disheartened by a little failure in life, cause there's gonna be plenty successes coming your way.

i used to think i was gonna end up a failure in life (not that i'm not) cause everything's not going as smoothly as it is. And all my life i thought i didn't have a goal or didn't know what i'm gonna be in the future. But i guess no one's really lost, cause i finally know what's my true calling (or, maybe). so watch this space kids, though it's getting pretty dusty here ((:

2007-04-15T01:22:00.000+08:00

to everyone who's struggling with work like i am, AZA AZA FIGHTING! one more week to go! :D

(/edited)
after reading some of the clique's blog, i feel like sucha loser now cause i'm so out of touch with you guys ): i'm so sorry for not keeping in touch, and i can't blame it on my common test since i think i spend more time on the computer than with anything/one else. anyway! cause i'm a cheapo like ninny, brother's having a gig this coming friday at YMCA, do tell me if you guys wanna go hokay! we can meet up and chill out! :DDDD i miss everyone! and i think i'm so fat now i need to go for botox, hurrr ):

2007-04-09T23:33:00.000+08:00

Sham's gonna be a ChAo MuGgErXzXzX (!!!!) from now onwards. i'm gonna try to stay out at least once a week during thw weekends to study, and also to revise. i'm in need of A LOT of studying kakis to get me in my pre O levels momentum again. i'm gonna start early this year and i'm gonna get my BBB (if possible AAA, but yea, fat chance) and go to NUS! hohoho, i <3 studying!

2007-04-03T23:24:00.000+08:00

why are you so stupid? you can't even do a simple question like that? no wonder all your teachers predict that you're gonna fail As when you haven't even taken them. and you know what? maybe they're right. ~~i don't stand a fucking chance~~

2007-03-31T19:33:00.000+08:00

self reflektion

hullo mateys, it's been a while. the past week's been agonizing but what's new. anyway, since i've been doing some self reflection recently, i've decided to let my fellow readers/bloggers see OrientalBeauty in a new light. well, it IS started with the intention of celebrating of asian beauty (think Zhang Ziyi). and no, i'm not self praising myself that i'm a beauty, but as MANY would put it, beauty is in the eyes of the beholder, so beauty is up to one's opinion. so yes, i for one, am proud of my asian traits and so should all other asians out there. we might not have sharp features like many caucasians and mixed blood people, but we sure as hell are unique in our own ways. we might be small but we do pack a punch! and hello, China is the up and coming new superpower! so all those out there undermining us Asians, you guys can just live in your small outdated world. and fyi, i really really think people who have nothing better to do than backstab, gossip and pick on people's flaws are really people who have very very bitter lifes. well of course no one is perfect and i definately am not, i do pick on others such as T and we often quarrel about our flaws. but yes, i'm learning from my mistakes and yes, we live and learn. and i sure don't go all out trying to undermine someone cause i am not in self-denial that i am perfect (and i'm really really really not picking on anyone, i swear, i really am not. shumpah with my fingers crossed. oops, i mean heart)

oh, and before i forget, yesterday was really a great day, cause i got to meet the most delusional man/boy i've ever met who thinks he's really all that (but seriously, you should see him for yourself) i mean, wake up kid, if you want to get chicks, lose that huge ego (maybe your lil' bro will grow) and start earning some cash. in pussycat dolls and timbaland terms, get some doughs and you'll get some hoes (whores).

alright, enough said. i'm gonna go listen to my current favourite song now, Paris Hilton's Nothing In This World. please don't judge me, i'm really smarter than my selection of songs. i'm just a regular girl who thinks that girls should have some bimbotic streak in them to spice up their life. hohohoho, i bet i should thanks the King of Burgers, they make mean burgers. good day kids.

2007-03-22T23:19:00.000+08:00

so today was a fairly bad day, maybe it's just the school itself that caused me to be gloomy. but things got better towards the night cause i got to meet JANTHEshittyMAN! hurhur, she's still as flabby and lame as ever (jan i love you la! ((:). and that piece of shit's gonna be leaving for aussie on the 28th for trinity! i'm gonna miss her like crazy lurrh, no one's gonna bitch with me about _, no one for me to jack and no one to make fun of people walking past us anymore! you better be missing me when you're over at australia! and so, jan and i made a pact to go genting again this december when she's back. how exciting :D!

i've made a set of resolutions that i'm gonna fulfil till the next month, it's basically on things that i want/need to get/do.

1) Train at least 3 days a week
2) Target for 2.4km : 12mins
3) Get the 2 pairs of boxers from newurbanmale/paulfrank
4) STUDY HARD! (DUH!)
5) Save up so that my bank account doesn't look very empty
6) GO SHOPPING!

alright, that's all folks! :D

2007-03-18T00:07:00.000+08:00

i am so proud of myself. i managed to complete the work i've wanted to complete in a day (though they could've been completed in a mere 5 hours, but hey, i like to take things slow) which is actually my homework. so tomorrow will be purely mugging and more mugging (i hope, crosses fingers) and tuition.

i just saw a reply from bestfriend regarding an email i sent her today. i don't know about others but i know, there's no one that knows me better than she does. past few weeks have been probably the start of a series of darkest days since the start of my junior college years. she really knew how to say the right words that tugged at my heart strings. and she's definately helped in getting my drive back in studying. well, sorta. and i couldn't thank God more for giving me a bestfriend who, though not always there, have been able to create a big impact in my life. and i know she'll love me for who i am, and so will i (: and now i hope she'll hurry fly back from aussie so that we can have more sleepover sessions :D

2007-03-15T22:00:00.000+08:00

so today marks the start, and end of Class Excellence Camp 2007 ))))): despite all the hard work, i'll miss the times we've to stay back till late in the evening and all the hard work we've put in to make it a success (though it's not the best, but hey, we were able to manage 1000+ people). twas tiring but it was worth it all (: (although the main purpose was to write something in my SGC) i enjoyed myself and the experience was great. ninny's place after with sheila to well, sleep and slime my day away basically. and she made egg mayo which was like even better still :D thank you ninny and sorry for your bedsheets.

okay, i ought to mug my remaining holidays away. eeeeeeeks :S, goodnight mateys

2007-03-11T22:39:00.000+08:00

have you ever wondered if you've enough time to repay your parents and ensure that they live the rest of their remaining days happily, contented and satisfied? i do. as i held my mum's hair in my hands, i wonder how much time i have left to spend with her. in that moment, it hit me hard that my mum's nothing but a vulnerable woman, yet all these while she's been my stronghold and my lighthouse guiding my every way. and it hurts, fucking much, to know that i've been nothing, but an ultimate failure in life.

love is watching someone die.

2007-03-05T20:47:00.000+08:00

i've a thousand and one things to say but i don't really know how to phrase it in words. and saying it out would've probably caused a lot of problems to myself but i guess i'm not gonna care about what others say cause it's my blog, and i can bitch/whine/cry/emo for all i fucking care and i don't give two fucking hoots about what anyone says. i guess i just really need a place to rant.

school work load's piling up more and more and i can't tell if there's ever gonna be an end to all the work i've to complete (maybe there never will be an end). and all this SGC bullshit's making me want to tear my brain up. nobody's really caring cause nobody really knows or probably nobody understands at all.

on a lighter note, PTM today went better than i've expected. Mum wasn't angry and i can tell we're getting on better than before (she even cooked vermicelli for me when we got home! hurrr)

p/s i've history test, essays, graphic organisers, whats nots to do, history is a killer i swaer
pp/s i need to sing Mew's special. maybe i will be...... someday haha

2007-03-04T23:23:00.000+08:00

in this world, 9 out of 10 people tend/used to have suicidal tendencies. and that got me wondering, would oliver wilde come to my funeral if i died and wrote that my wish is to see her at my funeral? or, will there even be anyone there in the first place, hmmmmmm.

p/s Jay Chou makes me an emo person ):
pp/s SGC makes me an angry person too

2007-02-24T12:08:00.000+08:00

Listen carefully, there's a price,
Is it harder for you to take my advice?
Are you tired?
Do you still want to live?
Is there anything left that you're willing to give?
Are you selfish?
Does it set you back?
Are you serious like a heart attack?
Are you calling me for some kind of answer,
Or waiting around for a second chance?

Well, don't come crying back to me,
When you're lonely and all out of love.
Don't come crying back to me,
When you're helpless and all out of luck.

Do you feel it when you're frozen inside?
Do you still swear to God you've got nothing to hide?
Does it cut you deep like a razor blade?
Does it hurt when I say don't do me any favors?

And, don't come crying back to me,
When you're lonely and all out of love.
Don't come crying back to me,
When you're helpless and all out of luck.

Stop waiting, there's no answer,
And no sense in second chances,
It's pointless and it's useless,
Sorries won't help you through this.

you were someone that mattered.

2007-02-16T23:39:00.000+08:00

so i spent the eve of valen's day with the clique, pity and nic and beryl weren't there ): anyway, had our ritual gift exchange and i felt really lousy cause everyone's gift was way cooler than loserish mine )))))): the company was awesome, we had our dinner at Marche and played Shoot, Shag, Marry where we all laughed our hardest (at least i know i did). i've never felt more alive then. dearest favourites, let's meet up again soon during the Chinese New Year holidays aiight :D?

school's been a bitch, especially History, but i guess in life nothing goes the way you want it to. so i'm gonna have to admit the fact that i suck at History and work my ass off to prove to the teachers that i can do it! no more procrastination!

recently, there's been a conflict between my class and this particular class. it's really annoying since they remind me a lot of SJC days where the seniors thought it was "cool" to gang up and show off their "guai lan", "chao chee bye", "kan ni na" or whatsoever hokkien vulgarities to us. not that i've anything against the use of hokkien but please, you're 17/18 going on 18/19, do you really need to resort to such drastic measures to prove that you're "cool"? and the best part is, it all started with the said class being too noisy (think a life size chicken little with a HUMONGOUS mouth, a 7/11, a zookeeper, and a panty girl who thinks it's damn sexy to flash in the lecture theatre) during lecture and we had no other choice but to inform our CT to do something about it. oh, and one last thing to add on, the class is made up of mostly guys. like, how ~~sissy~~ bitchy can these guys get?! (rolls eyes)

have a spectacular day ahead homies.

2007-02-11T13:00:00.000+08:00

good day mates. i'm very angry with blogger cause they forced me to switch my old blogger account to merge with the current google one. and i'm very angry with google cause they're taking over everything including youtube and that i didn't buy google shares when they just started out, if not i would've been a millionaire by now (damn). so valentine's day is around the corner, and as like last year i'll be having a celebration with the clique on tuesday(DUPER YAY!). i can't wait to meet my favourites whom i haven't seen in what seemed like decades, imagine all the fun we'll have :D!

these few days have been real slack for me since the end of common tests. and so far my results haven't been the leastbit pleasant but i guess i've pretty much expected such results. although i'll love to blame it all on my (ex)tutor, i admit that i'm to blame too for not studying harder. i need to put studies as my first priority and start thinking about my (bleak) future. sheila, we need to study full force! alright kids, this time, it's war.

p/s please ignore the last sentence, i just had a sudden urge to type that down.
pp/s NAT, I'M SO PROUD OF YOU FOR DOING SO WELL. I LOVE YOUUUUU (:

2007-02-03T22:48:00.000+08:00

& because i was being so emo during my last entry. i shall make it up by putting up random photos, some taken a long way back & some taken recently.

today, i was really happy that a friend messaged me whether i way free in the evening. but i guess i was too late in replying her cause i never did get a reply back. just so you know, i really miss you so. i realised that ever since my junior college year started, i've drifted from many and were brought closer to some. i should really catch up with those that i've lost touch with.

2007-01-31T22:55:00.000+08:00

have you ever felt so fucking useless, that you think the next moment, you're just going to break down and cry your eyes out? i do. have you ever felt that you could've made something out of yourself but you just let that chance go by, and now you're drowning yourself in self-pity and regret? i do. have you felt like you've so many things to do but so little time? i do.

i can't even look in the mirror now to see my pitiful self. good work sham, ~~you're so gonna do make it through tomorrow~~.

2007-01-29T16:54:00.000+08:00

ohohoh! hello, homies :D. common test have started and i'm done with 2 papers! YAY! now i'm left with my science papers namely Math, Chem and Physics. i think all my so called studying have paid off. cause for the first time in my entire jc life i felt prepared for HISTORY (sense of achievement please). all the studd that i studied for came out, and i spotted the right question for SBQ! but due to the lack of practice and time constraint, i wasn't able to finish my essay ))): but fret not! i'm sure i'll pass (oh please love me mister edwin tan! crosses fingers). despite my great hatred for the high authorities in my college, i'm glad that we're having common test so soon. gives me the sense of urgency to want to work hard now :D alright, i shall be back to mugginggggggggggggg.

2007-01-20T22:53:00.000+08:00

school's a bitch really. to think that with the new principal's arrival, i'll be assured a better life. i'm never stepping into the general office ever again. so stayover at bestfriend's yesterday. mahjong sessions, midnight supper (leftover noodles), conversations about everything under the moon (HAHA). but i'm really grateful that despite the distance apart, we're still as close as ever. bestfriend, you're for keeps <3. i think i desperately need retail therapy, and it's times like this when i need my fellow auntie ninny (we've yet to shop since i'm back! CNY shopping soon!) and my mugging partner sheila to keep me on track. nic's been by far the only thing that's keeping me sane in school. i haven't met up with some of the others in the clique. like becky, beryl, jo, nat, qi and toi (tanning soon!). we need an outing soon, i'm deprived of happy pills.

i've been diligently going for track, tried my best to not skip school and fall asleep in classes. i'm in awe of myself, though i haven't been doing my part as a student to do my tutorials and instead went around borrowing tutorials. but then again, i'm glad i've made it this far. do tolerate with my current lack of enthusiasm for school classmates, i promise the nerd sham will make a comeback soon.

till next time homies.

2007-01-14T18:23:00.000+08:00

it's been raining pigs and horses these few days, and yesterday was one of the rare days that it didn't rain. so yesterday was spent having 3 hours of math tuition (productive, as compared to my futile attempt to study these few days :/) and party over at bestfriend's :D! the party was good cause there was an abundance of food (think 70 chicken wings and etc. with only 20+ people at the party) and it's the usual meetup up with old friends and getting to know of new friends kinda party. had sleepover at bestfriend's and can you believe it, it's the first sleepover i've ever had over at her place. we need to do more bestfriend stuff to make up for our lack of bestfriend times. anyway, i guess i should be hitting back to the books since i just realised i'm not done with my chem and math holiday assignments and my english essay which are all way overdued. i ought to be slapped in the face :/.

p/s so i've heard aussie experienced snow before. who knows, with this global warming thing going on, Singapore might really have a chance of snowing! :D

2007-01-10T20:19:00.000+08:00

Despite the fact that i have tons of homework to finish, chem test to study for and revisions to be done, i'm here online and waiting for time to pass me by (like as if i've a lot of time). anyway, i've much to rant about such as my timetable and much to be thankful for this year. starting from this week onwards, i'll have to bring my pe shirt everyday cause pe's on tuesday and thursday, while track's on monday, wednesday and friday. so if you see me the next time round, i'll probably be as skinny as nicole richie and i'll gain that fab bod that i've been yearning for! and though i'm no longer under clinton yew (i can't believe i miss his teaching) for history, edwin tan's not bad a history teacher too. even though he's super emooo :/.and my physics teacher's this new old guy and he's really really good! and now i'll like to proudly proclaim that there's hope for my physics :D! so yes, i should be mugging now. anybody up for studying sessions with me?

2007-01-03T19:56:00.000+08:00

Greetings readers! Happy new year and i hope your 2007 started out with a bang. I thought mine was quite reasonably well start off since (if my memory serves well) it's the first time i celebrated countdown with my relatives (okay, super loser i know). and tomorrow i'll be finally flying back to dear ol' Singapore! YAY! Taiwan's been good to me so far, considering i didn't freeze myself to death over here & the food's wayyyyyyyyy better than Singapore's when it comes to price wise. but then again being back in Singapore would also mean the start of school for me and so it's back to books for me and my piles and piles of homework ):

and since it's the new year, i guess i should start my own new year resolutions too

1) Work hard for A's this year
2)Save more money and spend less
3)Be good to mummy
4)Be less emo :/

rights, i guess that's all for now. i'll add on more if i can think of any. right now, i think i'll savour my last few hours in Taiwan before i go back and face cruelty.

& i didn't eat smelly tofus FYI :P

2006-12-24T21:42:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MERRY CHRISTMAS!

ohkay, it's still the christmas eve but i'm hoping there's some live telecast counting down to christmas hence the greeting in advance. so it's this time of the year where everyones out in town, celebrating with their aerosol cans, trashing of bangalas, groping of girls & whats nots. to spare myself from the crowd & the agony, i've decided that the best way to spend christmas is to get yourself comfortable & cosy. & if you're still clueless, i'm going to spend christmas eve at home with a tub of Ben&Jerry's while watching teevee (& no, this is not a lousy excuse made up to cover up for my absence of not being out, i was out FYI). so while everyone is dressed up in their best christmas outfit (only to be dirtied by the smell of aerosol cans etc.), i'll be home in my comfy oversized tee & fbts, giving my stomach some loving, and having the company of mister teevee :D.

anyway, just a recap of what i did over the past week, that is, if anyone even cares, i had 4days3nights chalet with my favourites! & please applaud for the clumsy sham has finally learned to ride a bike! & they were all so supportive of my brother when he played at Overdrive at DXO. anyway, i'm super proud of my brother, though they didn't put in much effort & didn't win, they'll all be heros in my eyes. YOU GO RESONANCE!

taiwan the day after next. i'm kinda looking forward though i'll miss Singapore ):

anyways, just for the sake of saying it again, happy merry, jolly, peaceful (to me) christmas one and all :D. <3, yours truly

2006-12-17T16:17:00.000+08:00

Christmas Wishlist:

Teenage Millionaire Shirt (cute shit)

Red Converse Hi Cut Shoe.

Copeland's new album - Eat, Sleep Repeat

Ipod Video or any other new generation ipods that can contain 80GB of songs, videos, photos with Bejeweled (yes, i <3 Bejeweled)

Light Washed Torn Denim Jeans

The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger. I heard it's really good but i've never had the time to get it

For One More Day by Mitch Albom! I really loved Tuesdays With Morrie & 5 People You Meet In Heaven (: so i'm really looking forward to this book

Ed Hardy Short Sleeve Multi Tunic, Ink Geisha with Gold Leaf Foil Print

Anna Sui's Dolly Girl On The Beach

A Pet Kitten

and last but not least...

Truckloads of Cash :D

so now all i'm left to do is go get to sleep and dream on before i can lay my hands on any of this ): but then again, it's the season of giving so maybe some good old folks out there can fulfil this little girl's wishlist :D alright, off to set up my christmas tree! happy christmas holiday to one and all.

2006-12-14T19:28:00.000+08:00

Toy musuem with Nic, Ninny, Mandy & Sheila on tuesday. there were lots of vintage kind of toys (they've beatles!) and it's kinda amusing how toys have evolved. i feel like going back again. since christmas is around the corner, i should be starting on the annual christmas wishlist. and since i've been such a good girl this year (i think), mister santa please grant me all my wishes :D as the holiday is soon to be drawing to a close, i think it's time for me to look back on this year. to be honest, it has by far been quite fucked up (comparable to sec 3 years) and i doubt i've ever felt so low about myself. but this year was good cause it has really test my perserverence and might i add that i've grown from all these experiences. indeed jc life is the worst years in ones life, so it's time to enjoy what's left of my holiday cause after that, it's mugging and more mugging for me (i hope).

i've seen of heartbroken lovers whose other half has gone on with another. it's sad to see how fast a heart can change, so fast that there's not even time for transition. my friends, stay strong. and when hope seems far, do not give up, for i'll be watching your back. <3

2006-12-08T03:19:00.000+08:00

in about 3 hours time, i'll be making my way down to lavender and taking the coach to Genting. i think i'll miss Singapore a lot ): i'll miss the clique alot, probably Austin the humping dog too (he's going back on saturday). i'm looking forward to shopping with ninny at ERHEMERHEM, and also HAJI LANE :D after i'm back! and i think i'm going to be awfully broke (not surprising) so i reckon i should go on hiatus for awhile from online shopping cause karma's gonna be biting me right back at my ass due to my mindless indulgence. oh wonderful jellies! you are all mineeeeeeeeeee! i'm still thinking if i should get the haivainas (spell?) slippers, the NUM Brazil shirt and boxers :D talk about scrimping and saving. i'll be glad i even have 10cents left next year. anyhows, i'm off to pack (yes, very early i'd say) so bye world. see you all on monday!

2006-12-06T23:24:00.000+08:00

so i showed mummy the jellies that i wanna get. zomg, i swear my mummy's super cute "huh, plastic? no wonder so cheap. eh, help me check out LV bags online" HAHAHAHAH. out with ninny and sheila today. we had macs breakfast at ninny's (pancakes and sausage YAY!) then down to tp to develop photos but the dark room was locked ): bummer. but all was good cause we went down to tm to accompany nic during her break. nicc, i'm all for youuuuuuuuu, love love :D.

youtubing can be so depressing sometimes. so where do i stand now in your heart? hahahahahahaha, anyway food for thought. does music cause you to be depress, or is it because you're depress that's why you're listening to music?

2006-12-05T01:15:00.000+08:00

i want to get these BADLY ): there's so many more stuff that i wanna get. i hate being poor ): money please drop from the sky, pretty pleaseeeeeeeee? on a brighter note, 4 more days till gentinggggggg! :DDDDD, hokay, it's time to repent on a lot of things, hohummm. bye world

2006-12-02T19:13:00.000+08:00

OHLA (spells, O-LA)! these past 3 days were torturous cause of OGL camp. indeed i've learned many things through this camp, not that any of them are positive. through camp, i've experienced the darker side of school politics. and since we're on the topic of school politics, it is very obvious that i'm talking about the student councils (yes mr president sir, you suck shit, and i hope you trip and die one day.) as one of the councillors in charge of my group was not from the same department as the rest, the other 4 family groups literally ganged up against us during the camp. what my group had to face through each day was like hell, i literally almost killed the councillors (especially a fucking sissy one with an outburst of pimples) a lot of things were unfair for us and NO justice was done. talk about being student leaders for the cohort, i'm seriously ashamed of my own school. and i can't wait to get out of that hellhole.

2006-11-27T23:27:00.000+08:00

i saw mister CY today, i swear i almost wanted to kill myself :@ i don't know if i should feel happy as in happytilliwannajumpforjoy kinda happy or sad like bloodyfuckwalauwhatthehell kinda sad. The jacket that i wanted from Gap was OUT OF STOCK, i want to kill Gap already. First they don't hire anymore part-timers, then my jacket is OOS :@@@@@@. On a lighter note, christmas is coming and one more week till Genting. i love christmas cause it's a season to be jolly falalalalalalalala, and presents presents presents :D! i hope the clique is celebrating christmas together, but please no more town, i hate banglas :@, maybe someone's house will be good! yes yes, i love clique! i watched Nightmare Before Christmas in 3D today! EVERYBODY SHOULD GO WATCH (best show ever of all times i swear)

i realised whatever i've said are so random, howells, bye world, i had a great day today hohum.

2006-11-19T18:16:00.000+08:00

Dear mister CY & ET, you are so mean, you make me hate history ): anybody wants to do 6 essays on Cold War & Southeast Asia for me? Dear beloved history, please love me okay? somebody please slap me outta my slimeness & procrastinating & start doing my history :@. i don't feel like going school on wednesday already (frowns).

i want to marry justin timberlake now, his My Love video gives me a sudden urge to wanna join dance, & i might gain myself a hot bod :D! dance classes, anyone?

2006-11-16T12:22:00.000+08:00

it's hard to reject someone's plea for help especially when they're at their worst. it's probably human instinct to want to be by that someone, cause in all of us, we hope others will do the same to us when we're feeling our lousiest. even if you know that they're taking you for granted, but you still do it anyway. so dear H, fret not, i'm here (: i've always been.

although we're having holidays now, with extra lessons and 6 essays to complete, it seems like holidays are far from here. toi's birthday was on tuesday and we threw her a mini masquerade party. 17 and still a fat little cat, it's amazing how i've seen her grown since primary school, and we sure as hell grown a lot, right mao? i love the clique, i really do. i can't think of what will happen if i'm not with you guys. cause, you all made me who i am today. and i'm grateful for that.

_{wait, they don't love you like i love you}

2006-11-10T01:55:00.000+08:00

on my way to school for PW today, i had a sudden thoughts of how it'd be like if i was an andro. haha, i think i'll fit the bill of being one don't you think (flat boobs do not count)? PW was fine, despite me shivering like a vibrator (HAHA), spoke like a bullet train, rebuke the assessor as he gives me my question and stutter, it was good overall since i delivered all my points (: good luck to the rest who're having their PW tomorrow.

2006-11-08T20:50:00.000+08:00

i can see us holding hands, walking down the beach our toes in the sand. i can see us on the countryside sitting on the grass laying side by side. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKK, the song's stuck in my head ): but it's super addictive i've no reason why. probably it has something to do with the beat, hate earworms i tell you.

official PW's tomorrow, i'm so nervous that i practiced it over the phone to sheila & ninny last night. i'm sorry i was fart talking, love you guys <3. PW meeting today was quite productive, just hope i don't screw up tomorrow =S.

2006-10-30T00:10:00.000+08:00

this week's been rough but i'm not complaining really (: got to meet up with people whom i haven't seen for eons and it's all good. it was a good week despite the different kinds of feelings inside caused by results, birthday parties, quarrels, yada yada. anxiety, hatred, sadness, happiness, and lastly, love (: how can i not, when i've spent it with my favourite people in the whole entire universe? :D

2006-10-16T12:29:00.000+08:00

school's been a waste of my time ever since promos have ended. who gives a flying fuck about Project Work or even going through of scripts when i'm dreading to get back my horrid results? and the worst part of all is getting up early in the morning just to be in school for 2 hours of H1 lecture then back again. the possibility of me retaining is imminent and i doubt i'll even be given a chance to retain considering my conduct in school (quote) your attitude sucks big time (unquote).

i'm in need of serious comfort but i'm too poor to afford for a fake friend (not that i do) and i don't wanna approach my friends cause they're having their own problems too. so i guess it's back to indulging in online windowshopping/junkfood eating for therapy =/.

2006-10-12T23:11:00.000+08:00

:@ i'm in the mood to kill. nevertheless, i shall not be put down by a fugly bitch with fugly hair who can't run for nuts with pimples all over her body i swear it's omfg disgusting >:( i hope your pimples burst so badly that the pus and blood just drips non stop. and may you be run down by a truck 320482857984594328598 times

) #$&(#*&@%^@_()#+!@)(#) &%*^$@_&(!@+@

2006-10-07T17:09:00.000+08:00

(drumrolls please) i'm going to fail promos ):

while trying on clothes today, i've discovered a very horrible fact, OMFG I GAINED WEIGHT. i really desperately need to lose weight, like, A LOT of weight )))))))): gym, anyone?

yesterday was lantern festival, so nicky, ninny, qi, sheila and i played lanterns over at sheila's place :D beryl joined after with her boyfriend and her sister. her sister's really cute i realised. we were trying to make bonfires with our many many candles and i'd say that the fire was not bad considering the fact that we were all amatuers when it comes to fire (or at least i am). night was good despite us contributing to the already hazy weather (it's like genting now!) after that, walked home from jalan kayu cause there wasn't anymore buses available. but it was all cool cause it's been quite some time since i've walked this far and it kinda felt good (:

anyway, supper at night/ shopping/ tanning/ stayovers are muchly appreciated. please please please date me out, thank you very much :D

2006-10-03T23:56:00.000+08:00

so i fucked up my Chemistry and History papers, but then again what's new? it'll be a miracle that i can even pass. i guess i should kiss being JC2 byebye ):

watched Stay Alive today at Cathay with Ninny, Qi, Natt, Natt's friend, Becky, Toi and Jo. OMG, i swear the show's niceee! it's scary but not to the extent that you'll get nightmares or whatsoever. though i kinda silently wished that their graphics were more realistic =/. Walked to PS after and slacked at Mos with Becky, Jo, Toi and RongCheng (who came to look for Toi after the show) like losers. nonetheless, it was great seeing Becky, Jo and Toi after quite some time (:

by the way, the video for Hellogoodbye's Here In Your Arms SUCKS. A pity since the song is so omfg nice ))))))))):

2006-09-30T12:18:00.001+08:00

you know you've woken up on the wrong side of the bed when....

1) you were only able to get some shut eye in the morning

2) you got woken up by the sounds of the drum beating and the electric guitar playing away (the results of un-soundproofed walls :@)

3) you've had a bad hair day since last night

4)your promos have started and you realised you're not prepared AT ALL

i would gladly add on to the list but i'm too tired to do so. now i'm officially a grumpy fat ball of thing with only 4 hours of sleep =/. greaaaaaaaaaaaaaat somebody please please please just kill me. i'll pay you 5 bucks :D

anyhows, i managed to have macs breakfast today! now my life is ~~almost~~ complete. ahh, the wonders of pancakes (:

{/edited}
wo zhi dao ni wo dou mei you chuo, zi shi fen shou wei be jiu hao guo ):

2006-09-17T20:48:00.000+08:00

Hello Chemistry, Math, History, GP, Chinese, Physics. I'm gonna be seeing you guys awfully lot these few weeks, so please love me like i'm loving (omg) you guys and give me good grades ): till after promos, i'll probably be very much in nerd mode. ~~i'm sucha no lifer~~

i shall push myself on with the fact that after promos i'll probably be packed with shopping dates/ dates with mister sun/ mahjong (!!!!)/ movie dates/ breakfast at macs and muchmuchmuch fun (: any takers?

on a lighter note, i got myself a top today :D happyyyyyy

2006-09-11T22:58:00.000+08:00

God, please help me get through this.

_{i'm sorry i'm not strong enough}

2006-09-10T16:28:00.000+08:00

i love this song la okay, and i love it even more now that i've watched the MV. i've always used to think that MVs ruin the songs, but for some reason i like this MV very much :D. My first Puride design was sold yesterday and i'm trigger happy please :DDDDDDDDD i hope the customer likes the shirt. was over at Sheila's yesterday with Nic, Ninny and Qi. hahaha, we studied and talked about almost half the time and spent the last hour watching Singapore Idol. hehs, but time was well spent (: i enjoyed the company very much.

there was I Am Sam last night, omg, i swear i've never cried so much in my entire life during a movie. so heart wrenching please :((( haha, natt told me it was her third time watching and she has never failed to cry every single time (:

school's starting tomorrow, i want to cry =/

2006-09-08T00:38:00.000+08:00

went for dental today, so it's bye mr blue and hi to mr and mrs black and white. i'm feeling awfully down these few days, my so-called productive studies came down to nothing. i'm so sorry sheila and ninny that you guys had to keep calling me at my housephone just to realise that i'm not at home ): and hi mr asshole-you-know-who-you-are. fucking return my money already, you've been delaying payment since how long la okay. i want to die already =/, life without a phone. i'm so grumpy these few days i bet all of my grumpiness can form a mountain yes?

and seriously, there's no other so close to your heart friends like becky, beryl, jo, natt, nic, ninny, qi, sheila, toi. cause i've seen friendships rise and fall, and i've never seen friendships like ours that stand so strong (: so in conclusion, WE SO ROCK LA OKAY :D

2006-09-03T22:32:00.000+08:00

Krunk was good, despite the fact that business wasn't as good as planned, but response were goooooooood! (: and i totally understand what it feels like to be within a mile's radius with mean girls. it's like you wanna punch them hard in the face but, yea, they're just THAT bitchy and bimbotic. the party was kinda boring at first but soon things kinda perked up a little, with the company and all. haha, i guess sheila was right about the fact that homosexualism's like porn, like when you see it, you don't wanna look at it, but you're attracted to it kinda thing. okay, i've no idea what i'm talking about =/. the night went well _____ ___ ___ ____. haha, and after which rushed down with nic to qi's house to leave our stuff and cabbed to school for math test. we were like zombies lurrh, but i'm glad i was able to complete all the questions (: sham the great like totally mannnn.

2006-09-01T00:20:00.001+08:00

2006-08-27T16:59:00.000+08:00

i'm talking to toi now. HAHAHAHAH, omg, our conversation's so ___________. i miss her lurrh ): the phone has seriously deprived me of human contact. i shall go stick myself to any random passerby later. and i'm so bored i want to just roll around on my bed or on any surface really. was suppose to go to church today but lazy me decided to laze around like a big fat pig at home (sorry mel ): ) but the good thing's that i'm getting my phone next week! :D

promos is killing me, i swear i'm going to meetup with close friends/ people i haven't been in contact with and probably go out everyday after my promos ): by the way, jan the man has finally withdrawn from J@Y J@Y CEE, so it spells more time for SHAM right right right jan?! so when is billybombers huh huh huh?! in case you haven't noticed yet, this is such a random post. BYE.

2006-08-21T21:50:00.000+08:00

"Don't let me down" they said
"Don't let me down again"
No no...
Countdown, countdown, countdown to the disappointment
"I'm yours, tonight"
Countdown, countdown, countdown to the disappointment

okay, this entry'll be a heartfelt one. mummy, i'm sorry that for the past 17 years of my existance i've been nothing but a failure. i'm sorry that i lost the phone that i thought i'll be spending my next 2 years with. i didn't mean to lose it or let it be stolen. and i didn't mean to lie to you that the phone's spoiled so that you don't have to worry or get angry. i'm so sorry, that i'm not able to be who you want me to be, i'm sorry i can't be like brother who did you so much proud, i'm sorry i'm not your pride and joy ))): i love you mummy

okay, 1 and 1/2 more months till promos. it's time to chiionnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggggggggggggg studies once again. studying khakis, anyone?

2006-08-11T16:49:00.000+08:00

PLAYIT

video's super nice please! omgomg, haha, the video's really colourful. reminds me of a 70's show or something. look out for the guy that's distributing skating shoes at the rink, he's really hilarious and jessica simpson's quite a dumb blond really. but the best part is eva longoria's inside :D! she's so hot i wanna marry her (besides alex). no school for me today cause of some ilearning shit, suppose to do homework online. and guess what, i'm doing chinese. haha, so far it's the most interesting homework and easiest too. and while all the other people go to school today, i was lazing my ass off at home :D. alright, back to horrid homework ):<

2006-08-05T00:43:00.000+08:00

i realised my past few entries sound like i'm ready to commit suicide or whatsoever. PMS much? after all the so called 'dieting', it's time i sat down and enjoyed one of the great creations of God - FOOD. haha, had my first visit to Billy Bombers today (Jan, NEVER DATE ME! F5) and the food portion's like those of Carls' Jr or even larger! however the milkshake tastes like MOS burger's. so tuesday will be dinner at chung qing (?!) and there's still a few more places that i'd like to have a feast at. namely, Coca, Pepper Lunch, Bao Today (HAHA), New York New York, Ben and Jerry's and Nooch. OMG, i predict a rapid increase in fats/weight. hah, that braces thingy better make me lose weight.

haha, maomao you are so lame i wanna fart in your face and yes you know if i've anything that bothers my i'll tell you straight away (: hehe, sheila! i would have gladly roasted marshmellows for you anyday! ninny, hehe yep i'm cheered up already and let's go watch stay alive so that i can hide under you :D. oh and natt, if the lorry comes and you push me awya, i'll push you away too! see my undying love for you!

i miss SJC super much, and i really do wish i could go back to then since it's probably like one of the best times ever. even though everyday's like a torture to me, at least i know i'm trying to make the best out of everyday. i've had enough of teenage dramas

2006-07-31T23:46:00.000+08:00

i always thought that birthdays will make you feel like the luckiest person on earth. but why do i feel like the shittiest person alive? fuck school, fuck classmates, fuck family, ~~fuck everything~~. i think i really need a week's break to breathe and catch up on everything. if only time can stop ): bbq was alright cause the company was good. we all had a good time, right? i don't know what to expect anymore. i hope i get knocked down by a lorry or something.

2006-07-26T23:28:00.000+08:00

My Sister's Keeper - Sara

I hold up a hand. 'What I mean is that those thoughts, they're human. And just because you turn out differently than everyone's imagined you would doesn't mean that you've failed in some way. A kid who gets teased in school might move to a different one, and be the most popular girl there, just beacause no one has any other expectations of her. Or a person who gets to med school because his entire family is full of doctors might find out that what he really wants to be is an artist instead.' I take a deep breath and shake my head. ' Am i making any sense?'

'Not really.'

That makes me smile. 'I guess I'm saying that you remind me of someone.'

Anna comes up on an elbow. 'Who?'

'Me,' I say.

I wished that someone would've told me that it was okay to be me instead of being someone i didn't want to be. On a lighter note, birthday celebration yesterday with the clique and a few others was a blast. i thank you all for the wonderful surprise and effort done up for me birthday (: you don't know how much it meant to me! I LOVE YOU GUYS LA, A LOT A LOT. and to those who wished me happy birthday, THANK YOU ALL. it made my day! ((((:

2006-07-21T23:25:00.000+08:00

it's kinda hard to strike a conversation with someone after losing contact for quite some time, you either cause misunderstandings or conflicts =/.

out with jan the man after today to catch pirates of the carribean. i tell you i'm very much in love with johnny depp now :D. like how can anyone be so good looking and yet still have look dirty and unhygenic at the same time?! haha, and watching a movie with jan's really fun. she laughs like a hyena and doesn't mind me beating her/whining about the movie. we should do this more often please! our conversations were never ending and it's been quite awhile since i've had such good company except from the clique and the usuals. dear jan, please remember to save up for billy bombers the next time round and get ready to burn down your house with the cake we're planning to bake :D. okay i can hardly wait (:

oh! mummy's back! hooray! :DDDDDDD.

2006-07-09T10:56:00.000+08:00

depressing weekend for me ))))): mummy went on vacation at taiwan for 2 whole frigging weeks leaving poor old me behind with the nasty brother (okay not very nasty but i'm just saying cause it just seems appropriate to). and i really really miss her very much cause i just realised that the house feels so even more empty now that she's not here. i've even started missing her naggings! )))): bestfriend went back to melbourne last night too and it's so sad cause she came back for only 2 weeks and now she's flying back, and we've met up only 3 times!

my common test results are so hideous that i can't even look at it. i've never felt so lousy about my performance ): alright, but i guess i've to pull myself together and start to mug for the promos. and if anybody sees me, please knock me on my head and tell me to stop spending $$. i'm spending like donald trump's my father =/.

but on a brighter note, Yum Cha yesterday afternoon for brunch with the boyfriend, i love it la, reminds me of HOng Kong and how i love the dim sums there :D. alright, gotta try and mug now.

2006-07-03T22:51:00.001+08:00

BRAZIL IS OUT AND I'M SERIOUS ABOUT BOMBING FRANCE EVEN IF I HAVE TO BE A TERRORIST (bye my beautiful dreams of being a taitai)

so there's a big confession i've to make that probably only a few people really know, and that is that i've always wanted to be a taitai. unrealistic, no? i mean it's quite a common dream to be a taitai but i'm really positive that i'm going to get myself a rich husband even if i have to make one rich one myself. either that or i can probably try and get rich myself, which might be much harder. and yes, now everyone knows i'm materialistic. hah, i should just drown myself in embarrassment.

oh and i wanna watch pirates of the carribean! don't you think johnny depp is friggin cute?! haha,okay, i think he's really good looking even if he looks like he got eaten by ten thousand fishes and was a skeleton in Pirates of the Carribean : Curse Of the Black Pearl. or he looks like a goofy loser in Charlie And The Chocolate Factory, I STILL THINK HE'S DAMNIT HOT! haha, i can't wait for it to be out (or is it out yet?)

2006-06-23T22:27:00.000+08:00

tomorrow marks the start of my first ever common test in my JC life AND the end of the wonderful june holiday (BOOHOO). i'm proud to say that i won't be surprise if i'm ranked rock bottom 100th for my common test ): the holiday's been a blast even though there were rough times and unproductive studying sessions. on a lighter note, Great Singapore Sale's on and i've yet to buy myself anything decent BUT i've been splurging like crazy. i swear online shopping's addictive (:

alright, back to my (UTTERLY) dull stack of GP notes. and i miss Mdm Kelly Tan )):

2006-06-15T12:54:00.000+08:00

kids, do not try this outside (: go get a bottle of diet coke (0.5/2.5 litres doesn't matter) and a whole tube of mentos the freshmaker. with godlike speed, put all the mentos into the coke bottle. while doing this experiment, please stand a few metres away from the apparatus.

watching youtube is a great way of passing time. i found out that they actually showed beavis and butthead on youtube! how cute la okay (beams)! everyone should go watch it cause they are THAT retarded and funny, maybe that's how spongebob squarepants came about. anyway, this school holiday sucks shit, and i predict that i'm going to flunk my common test and retain in j1. bye world

2006-06-06T23:20:00.000+08:00

i hate sellers who give away their goods to the highest bidder (who isn't even considered one in the first place) even though the one who was interested in the goods initially is considering to pay the same amount as the "highest bidder". so what if i had negotiated? isn't it in anybody's (or auntie-ish people like me - yes i admit i'm one) nature to want to get something at a lower price? especially since it's been worn before. okay, so the fella offered you the price you wanted, i would've paid you the same amount too (as i've mentioned). so anyway, i've come with the conclusion that such sellers are either unprofessional or have no common sense at all. and besides, she never stated that she was those kind of buyers that give the goods away to the highest bidder. (so i sound like a big fat sore loser, i don't really care. to hell with that bitch)

anyways, was over at malaysia with grace, kailin and kailin's mom. it's been like 8 years since we've met and we've had conversations that made us seem like we've never stopped contacting. i'm hoping to go back malaysia again and book myself an air ticket to thailand during december holidays. i'm determined to go to thailand this year :D.

2006-06-02T12:04:00.000+08:00

despite the irritating door that refuses to let us in when we're out (that we had to ask for assistance and make the poor lady cycle to our chalet room twice), the mistake we made thinking that escape closes at 10 instead of 7, the rain that spoiled our day, the 3 days spent with the Clique has never been better. let's make the next one 4 days 3 nights :D. dined at sakae with the family last night, i swear sakae's my love of all time when it comes to food. CSed with brother and friends after that ( maomao, be VERY jealous :)), and i have to admit that i enjoyed myself much.

2006-05-27T01:28:00.000+08:00

the long awaited holidays are finally here! :D i can feel myself jumping for joy. no more dragging of feets to school (at least for one week)! tuition at bishan today with malcolm. it seems so weird to have tuition at fast food restaurants cause it feels like everyone's eyes are on you. but tuition was productive nonetheless, since i've somehow gotten the hang of sequence. and i hope i can get a pass in my math lecture test (which is rather impossible) :/. alright, back to dead until dark. i swear vampires are hot :D. i'm such a sucker for romance.

2006-05-22T21:06:00.000+08:00

today, i don't know what hit me but i had the sudden urge to jump down the building and be known as the "srjcian school girl who committed suicide" ): yes, that's how bad school is. not mentioning the amount of workload i've to manage, i can't even keep myself awake at night to do my homework and had to resort to copying during my pathetic 1/2 hour breaks or 1 hour lunches. that's how taxing school is. sometimes i wish i could just drop out of school

there's history quiz yet again, clinton yew's lessons make observing a snail travel seem interesting. makes sense, no? i've been doing my gpp for the 3rd time and please someone kill me if it's not approved. and while my other group members don't have history (since they all take h2 mother tongue - what assholes) i'm left with the horrible gpp to work on while they get to do other things. no sleep for me tonight, i hope. it's times like this when i feel like skipping school once again and laze around in my crib and play maple all day long.

yet again, it's only a few more miserable days left till the start of the much anticipated june holidays, chalet and vaunt with clique :D. meanwhile, i'll take that as consolation for working so hard.

2006-05-13T20:47:00.000+08:00

i feel so proud of myself! i spring cleaned my room (like finally!) and i was brave enough to clear away the dead cockroach under my bed. that cockroach's real nasty i tell you. it comes out in the middle of nowhere and scares the shit outta me, then runs back into the darkest corners of my room - under my bed. this happened 3 or 4 times and had become so bad that i had to sleep in the spare room. today, i finally plucked up courage to conquer my fears of that cockroach and i found it dead in the midst of all the dust (i hope you get banished to the lowest level of hell you brown disgusting thing)! got to copying math lecture notes and now i'm procrastinating on whether or not to start doing my work. i'm so lazy i swear ):

second star to the left, go until dawn says:
anyways, LOW YON WO HEN XIANG NI
second star to the left, go until dawn says:
NI XIANG WO MA?
second star to the left, go until dawn says:
: D
Ana : Sic transit gloria. says:
Bu
second star to the left, go until dawn says:
):
Ana : Sic transit gloria. says:
Bu Guan Wo Jai Na Li Wo Ye Hui Xiang Ni

2006-05-04T21:19:00.000+08:00

woke up today and anticipating that school will be shitty, but eventually it turned out to be a-okay. met up with sheila, ninny, qi and natt at compass to study after school. it wasn't really productive considering that alll i did was just flip through my gpp draft and read the comments ting left. but nonetheless, the meetup was good OH, and we saw miss yeo too! (: it made me realise how much i miss sjc and the times when we'll mug like theres no tomorrow. and i can't wait for da vinci code to be out! bye world.

2006-04-30T23:36:00.000+08:00

have you ever felt like tearing your whole house down, screaming at the top of your lungs, locking yourself up in a room devoid of any contact whatsoever, and just cry your heart out, just because you're having one of the shittiest days ever? well, i'm feeling that way now.~~and no one's making it any better~~

however, yesterday's gathering with the clique was fab, though short, but enjoyable. i love you guys (:

2006-04-18T19:42:00.000+08:00

you've never really shown concern in my behaviour in school so why start now? i've tried to explain how i do not wish to talk about school and YOU, of all people, should know how irritated i get over things that i do not wish to discuss about. and yes, school's been fcuked up and i see no end to the mountains of homework that are accumulating day by day. i was punished to copy a WHOLE CHAPTER of history just because i didn't bring my file WHEN I HAD ALL THE CONTENTS OF THE FILE WITH ME.

on a lighter note, gp's not so bad afterall. mdm kelly tan's probably one of the best teachers (other than miss yeo) ever. did i mention that she mocked mrs kok infront of my class? and damn she's the most encouraging teacher i've known :D.

i miss sjc and the people, fcuking loads ):

2006-04-06T23:32:00.000+08:00

i should be crowned the nerd of all nerds. all hail miss nerd 2006 please ((:

i'm constantly mugging, but there always seems to be not enough time to fit everything in! i'm finally done with my PI, and i hope it's up to standard though =/. my bruised leg's feeling better already, though it's getting itchy now cause it's starting to peel. i think i'm going back to training next week! and i'm going to finally get my new track shoes on sunday, YAY YAY YAY! i feel so good today, and i'm FINALLY dieting, and not procrastinating anymore ((: so it's goodbye to fat sham and hi to skinny sham (i hope)! i love random posts, don't you :D?

2006-03-30T23:20:00.000+08:00

SRJC = Super Raffles Junior College. this is like probably the most ridiculous and hilarious thing ever.

had a bad fall and now i've bruised knees. my bandage looks like knee pads by the way, and nic couldn't stop laughing. somehow or another, i kind of regretted not taking first three months seriously. now i'm left with mountains of work and every ounce of my brain juice has been used up. ~~and i know nuts about my subjects~~. i miss sjc days where i could copy homeworks and get all the help that i needed from the clique or the classmates. at SR, it's everyone for themselves. and did i mention that the principal totally rocks my socks (PUKES)? i miss the clique )):

2006-03-26T01:34:00.000+08:00

i just found out that we've only 10 more weeks till mid year examinations 0.o no more slacking anymore i guess, and that's bad =/.

caught V for Vendetta on friday. it's FCUKING nice! it's like my favourite movie of all time now :D. school's been rather slack these few days, and i'm starting to worry if i'll be able to catch up on the syllabus. oh wells, since when did I worry?

hi, where have you been? i've missed you so much.

2006-03-23T00:08:00.000+08:00

hi, i'm such a disappointment. please mock me, ridicule me. but i'll prefer being thrown rocks at (:

2006-03-19T19:56:00.000+08:00

today marks the end of the march holidays. i'm quite proud to say that i'm much smarter now (thanks to holiday lessons and tuition)! i hope that next week will be much better =/. romp on thursday with the clique was alright. it wasn't as good as i'd expected it to be, but the company was great and i got to see many friends there! rights, i'm suddenly having cravings for hotcakes with sausage at macs =/.

2006-03-14T23:57:00.000+08:00

march holidays seem nothing like march holidays. i've lessons since monday till thursday, and i still have to go to school on friday to get my uniform. and surprisingly, i've never skipped (only physics) any lectures so far, praise me please :D. though the school gives sucky timetables, there's history tomorrow. and i'm keeping my fingers crossed that edwin tan will be giving the lecture.

tanning today at oli's place with kengyin. her house is really a good place to tan, there's slides, jacuzzis and steam baths! i wanna go back and tan again!

2006-03-12T19:49:00.000+08:00

new term, new blog, new start ((: